here on Clay Pit Creek...

Not a gratitude post but I am tired and my mind is going in circles. I am so worried about what will happen with school, and what kind of long term effects it will have. Looking for ways to keep Maddie's spirit intact and build mine back up. I feel stuck and panicked. I don't know how to make things change.

I am grateful......... ...for a few days of girls only living at home. ...that Alan likes his new job, and has this opportunity to go away. ...that it is the home stretch for the PARCC and almost over. ....that we are having a follow up IEP meeting. ....that so many people are willing to help me when I need it. ....that Makara can babysit tomorrow.

Today I am grateful ... For my little girl's big win at the science fair-could not have come at a better time. Things do happen when you need them. Thank you, God. Thanks for the sign. I'm sorry I doubted. For a really great weekend, after a rough week. A nice date night Friday and a night to myself last night....ahhh........ For an upcoming week as a single lady. Ah.......

I am thankful..... that we found that rubric before it was too late. that Alan and I are on the same page. that I work from home. Today, I am really sad. I am feeling really defeated and bad about everything. I know tomorrow will be better, and I know my issues are relatively small, but I am sad none the less.

I am grateful for LOBSTER My new necklace Time in the sun a great birthday!!

I am grateful..... for a fun day with friends! for recognizing that I have created a life that is as peaceful as can be, and satisfying on many levels. for red, red wine......... fun night!

I am grateful for.... ....my sweet little girl who wanted to take care of me last night, when I didn't feel good. ....my cyberfriend Kim for all the info on the IEP process. .....almost being done with Navesink. I cannot wait to get out of there.

I am grateful for this week. I relaxed. I am grateful for Vania. I am grateful to get tomorrow out of the way,

I am grateful.... for an unforgettable day at the White House Easter Egg Roll! for time with my family for that great dinner at Jaleo and brunch at Sequoia--my foodie urge is totally satisfied for a while. for my visit with SC relatives beautiful sunsets at Ashley's house fun times with Kinsey relaxing with my mom and Bob and a not too terrible drive home!