here on Clay Pit Creek...

I am grateful.... ...for my health. ...for Joyce and Al-it was nice that they hosted. ...grateful for how good Maddie was yesterday, I'm sure it was super boring for her. I don't know how to make a day down there any better.  I think I just have to refuse to do it for Christmas. Hopefully they will admit it was too much for them. Things that were good about yesterday: we were warm the turkey was good we brought the dog no one hurt themselves or spilled anything I'm still grateful the color run is over, lol.

today I am grateful.... ...that the Color Run is over. Man, that was a draining mistake on my part!! ...that I got to go to Sweden. ...that I had a nice chat with Aunt Candy this morning and got to hold the baby. He is cute!

Today I am feeling sad and alone. I think I am going to yoga later, that will make me feel better. I feel stuck. And I did not like spending that money on the couch yesterday. And my dinner came out crappy. Why bother. :(

I am grateful... for second cups of coffee that I get to stay in bed for another hour this morning for my friends I am worried about the holidays. I try to make them better every year, but it feels like it's out of my control. Sick old people-I can't do anything about that. I feel bad for Madeline-it's going to be a boring, uncomfortable 8 hours. And I feel bad for me, I want holiday traditions that we look forward to and I am trapped with this situation.