here on Clay Pit Creek...

 I am grateful..... that we have a place in VT, that online school is going well, that Maddie's friends are all okay. But honestly, I am so upset and unhappy. I am scared and frustrated and I don't like this America and these Americans. 2020 Rise of the Idiots. Last night was terrible and demoralizing and I am afraid for this country and our future.

I am grateful.... for hours at the beach for my pretty new FREE beach spot that Maddie has been holding to the schedule we created that Maddie has been reading books that her braces will come off soon grateful i started working with Arctis grateful for the extra money Amazed at where I am right now.

It has been too long.... I'm grateful for good food I'm grateful to live at the beach I'm grateful for all of this money that I've saved. I'm grateful that we are all safe at home.

I am grateful.... -that I will see Jill today -that it's a beautiful day for a walk -that i might not see "the management" until 2021? That's an opportunity.

I am grateful... ...for slow Saturday mornings in the sun on the dock ...all of the snuggles with Sadie ...getting Maddie out of her room for a few hours for Monopoly yesterday ...my snackboard ...grateful to Alan for listening to me and moving that table out of the playhouse ...getting paid during this crazy time ...not having to worry about FOMO for now

So much to be grateful for... I am grateful that we are all healthy! I'm grateful that Alan and I are both employed. I'm grateful that Maddie's doing ok with online school. I'm grateful that her friends made a nice birthday surprise for her. I'm grateful for that poem! I'm grateful that we get to quarantine in this house, on the river, that I live in a beautiful place. I'm grateful for my walk today. I'm grateful to Alan for suggesting it. I'm grateful for the break from regular ALA even though I miss it. I'm grateful for all of the every day things that I can't do now, but I know I'll do again! I'm grateful that I know now to appreciate them. I'm grateful Alan and I have gotten along pretty well in Quarantine. I'm grateful that Maddie and I really on had that one fight. I'm super grateful to Juliana at BB for the amazing free yoga on youtube. I'm grateful to Jill for the beautiful flowers. I'm grate

I am grateful that we are all together and healthy! I am grateful for our week in Vermont. I am grateful that my 401k has not really been terribly beaten up. I am grateful for my job and paycheck! I am grateful for my coworkers. I am grateful for my little family. I am grateful for my fleece vest! I am grateful to live in between a river and parks.

I am grateful for the VT house. I am grateful for a nice glass of red wine, though I am also grateful that I don't drink as much anymore. I am grateful to come home to a house that was nice and clean, and that everything went smoothly this past weekend! I am having a hard time with anxiety lately. I am worried about Madeline. I am unhappy with the dynamic at home. Alan seems stressed and unhappy. He melts down over little things (wrappers in the car) and then I feel like I am walking on eggshells.