I am not keeping up my gratitude! Posted an entry from February yesterday that I never hit publish on. I am doing better than I was a few months ago, but I have to say.....I'm not great. I used to love my job and now it's difficult, reduced to spreadsheets and shipping issues. I need to focus my attention on what matters but right now I can't see the way out. That said, I am thankful...... .....for cbd oil .....for maddie's reading habit .....for the huge reimbursement from vacation. The vacation thing takes the sting out of the trip. The cbd oil helps a lot but I am still really struggling. I can't let drama with my mom drag me down. I can't let work garbage drag me down. But I do. I need.......I don't even know what I need but I guess the sad fact is that life is not going back to normal. What I had before is gone. And when this pandemic is over....I don't know what will be left. I try to think about what good things could come of this, what good thin